Thursday, December 28, 2006

♥--problems--♥

been bothering about many things these few days....and last night Phoebe told me a lot of terrible things...never seen her in such a f***ed up mood until yesterday.....

sometimes i wondered why we are borned in this world...i heard that we as human beings now are BeING a human being because of our sinful behaviour.....some might think it's ridiculous to say so, but i choose to believe it....why? the answer is very simple because we are now surrounding with loads of problems , need to bother a lot of things and so on....there are happy moments but also problems are as much as it.

when someone being called a copycat by his or her own companion i think that they will feel sad and also sooner or later confidence will reduce.....is it someone who is beautiful and outstanding alywas the one who bring up the trend?is it that they what they do if someone has similarity will being accused of copying one's style? why do normal and plain girls need to be called as following other's pace?(beautiful n outstanding)..sometimes really like wtf laa...guys are mean human being...

oh ya..and also a little bit about me and Lipas...sometimes i really felt that being with him...my confidence seem getting lower and lower...sometimes criticzing may make someone grow and learn..but this only happens if my friends do so..but for Lipas, everytime he critizes me...i'll be very depressed, sometimes i will show my sadness on my face but sometimes i might just hide those feelings and pretend nothing....he everything say i "doh doh yeh"means talk many many things=talk crap or rubbish.....then i just say yes, i am....he always say that i am fat..i mean yes..he can say so..but can he say in a proper way...like..." you gained weight already, need to go for diet".....of cause i got ask him to tell me directly...but then not THAT DIRECT...as what the article in january's issue(2007) of cleo written there....guys cannot be too honest...something like that...forgotten what the author written...

he make me feel like a very "short" person when i am beside him, he will keep on criticizing, criticizing until i dont want to tell him how i really feel...even if i tell him..he sure will say i "doh doh yeh" again...i dont like it at ALL~!

sometimes i dont like him teaching me things...it makes me feel that he thought that himself is good at everything....maybe I AM THE ONE WHO IS WEIRD....i dont like him teaching me...lecturing me....saying me......criticizing me....everything bad and mean........i know that this is our way of communicating but then someitmes i can accept sometimes i cant..he just do not know how to cope with the situation......i am weird i am weird...

dont know what to type now.....too depressed already....

Labels: --depressed--

♥yijune
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